According to the dictionary Oxford Languages, confidence is a feeling of self-assurance arising from one’s appreciation of one’s own abilities or qualities. Just reading that definition made what I have been saying about myself even more solid. For once in my life, I appreciate myself. I see myself, and I am beginning to love myself. Don’t get me wrong, it is hard for me to see myself as a confident person. As I tell people that I have a confidence for the first time in my life that I have never had, I feel like I need to follow up that statement with something explaining that I know there is still a lot about me that needs to be worked on. I feel awkward telling people that I have confidence, which shows that I don’t have complete confidence yet. I feel guilty, as if I am bragging on myself. You see, I come from a family that has never truly believed in themselves, so every once in awhile I have to remind myself that it is okay to be confident because when you are confident you are in fact trusting in yourself. After all, trusting yourself is the most important person to trust. You have got to believe in yourself and trust that you have what it takes to become who you want to become. You have got to trust yourself when your gut tells you to leave a situation or even a person. You have to trust yourself to guide you in the direction you need to go to accomplish all you want to accomplish.
Yes, it has taken me fifty years to get here, and if you were to ask me for advice, I would tell you not to wait as long as I have to find your confidence, but at the same time, it doesn’t matter when you find it, just find it. I do admit that if I had gotten here sooner, I probably would have made some different choices in my life. But honestly, those choices, right or wrong, helped make me who I am and I am fifty and fabulous. What is sweet about me saying that last statement, I am fifty and fabulous, I didn’t even flinch when I typed it. I truly believe it. So go and find your confidence! It is such a great feeling.